Its terrifying to know how is it like...
I want an "if only" spell..
if anyone happens to know it...
pls teach me...

anyway christmas is coming..
has squeezing brain juice to think of where to celebrate..
hopefully it won't be bad..
can't wait:D

dear dear, are you excited?
okay he will not reply.. cause he dun read..
bye!

i just wanna set myself in the nothing box
and think about nothing right now..
i'm so tired..
of everything..

its is the start of another week,
which also means tt it is a beginning of the holiday week..
which also also means tt.. it is a beginning of "working on project hols"..
i just dunnoe how to motivate myself to do this during the holidays.
i mean... holidays are meant to be relax, fun and stressless..
but this time round.. i need to take these all away and think about the shittiest thing.

I want these 8 weeks to be over real soon...

life has been miserable ever since i return from taiwan..

Anyway...
taiwan was great...
i will never mind going again..
we came in second.. :D
which i think..
i am so proud of my team:D
i heaven't been seeing them for a week or so..
i miss them so much already..

they just have 2 new little one joining them..
and i might be leaving them soon (if i manage to grad)
hopefully i won't be forgotten..

for the pass one week..
i have been pia-ing my project..
1st thing tt i did when i wake up..
was to sit in front of the bloody laptop and start cadding..
it was more than a piece of shit..
and now..
i am waiting for this presentation..
to determine if i will be able to grad..
hopefully its a yes..
i seriously dun wan another yr of hell..
i have enough..

i forget to bring keys yesterday..
so i have to sit outside my door till my dad goes to work..
i scroll through my phone's phone list..
and i realise that..
actually.. i dun have any frens tt i can chat on the phone with anymore..
i called tong..
but she was working..
sigh...
maybe i have brought it upon myself..
which makes me feel that..
......
i shall not say..
life is just pathetic..
isn't it?
well.. i think mine is...

i still has got 2 and half week to finish up my shittiest work..
and i can totally feel so dead..

Other then dear dear, my motivation to do my work is to polo..
now that it has been taken away..
i feel so naked..
its tt kind of feeling when i had it a few years back..
its crap shit.. (i'll about polo during lesson and when doing project)

maybe we weren't treasuring it..
now tt it has been taken away..
we all then know how much it mean to us..
the pain when we dun get to polo..

I'm done with my work..
yea!!!! and tml will be another hell day..
CRIT KILLS...

some say it is written.
if it is so..
i hate the way it is..

After reading jo's blog..
i then realise...
i have no more such friend that she is talking about..
and..
i think now dear dear is doing my "friend's" job..
which is...

ok.. i'm busy..
bye...

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