[the above sentences are for myself.. ]
I have skipping many sprint trainings. I know i am doing this very selfishly. Yanli and Joanne is training so hard in order to manage both sprint and polo.. and all the fuck i know to do is to skip these training... leaving them like tt.. i know how much they wan to show the seniors that they can make it.. I'm such a let down..
Stayed over at dear's house yesterday.. we talked about his team before bed. I think he has got a pathetic team. way worse than the girls. Although i'm a let down.. and some girls are going to quit.. and leaving with 3 yr 1 girls... but at least.. we are trying to bring our standard to a better one. Helping each other with our own mistake.. talking to each other when there's a need to.
What about the guys??? Gao has done so much.... not just because he is the vcap, but also wanting the team to improve... When he injured himself.. he didn't have to sit at the grand stand there to watch the guys.... and figuaring out their mistake ONE BY ONE... and the whole team has got 9 people excluding of himself... and gao has got only one pair of eyes... he could have just stayed at home to rest... why the fuck is he staying till 11 just to see the guys play when he can't get into the pool??? he even bring a book and pencil to jot everything down...
He himself is not the team... he is just part of the team... why is he doing everything... don't the guys have a part to play??? by improving... by listening... by trying their very best, by helping each other... telling each other's mistakes... what is wrong by doing all these??? its the team's job... everyone plays a part... why is it so difficult???
The guys think tt gao is repeating the same thing every debriefing... and the guys find it boring.. Gao finds it even more boring.. to always repeating the same old things.. all guys have to do is just to listen... and wad he do is all the talking... would someone pls tell me... which is more tiring???? its also a fact that some of the guys are improving... its something good.. but can all of them do the same thing???
As a vcap... he has got the responsibility to descipline his team... why can't all of them show some understanding... pumping them is not wad gao wants... and it is their fault that they are doing that... why are they are showing those kind of fuck up faces when they are told to do pumps...
Having some of the guys giving up on the team... wad about gao??? he needs to hang on... he as a vcap.. has not yet give up... why are these people trying to give up???
And so wad if Gao is the vcap... "vcap" is not a sai gang worrior... yes..part of his job is to tell his team their mistake.. to make this team a better one.. but the fuck thing is that... everyone has got a mouth to themselves... why can't they pin point out the mistakes that they saw??? why must the message be pass to gao.. den he does all those toking??? isn't this a selfish act?
If this is tiring for the guys... den i think gao is more tired than anyone else... so wad are they being tired about????
And does the guys even appreciate wad he has done for the team...
DO YOU GUYS SEE OR FEEL IT?????