School school school... its all my life has got now... it feels like it no longer revolves with dear, and any other of my friends. Even training... I'm missing. It feels like i heaven been training properly.
I'm sick of staying in the studio... Facing those papers that i'm asked to fold, its bigger than my table in front of me.
I feel like crying at this moment... cause its too much of missing so many people.. flashing back... i really had many many many many fun... such that i think i'd taken it for gruanted..
These moments were gone ever since i'd left. i miss... but somehow, i am used to and quite like the way i'm living right now[except for school part]. i was left alone not knowing what to do... And that's the moment when i'd lost all my laughter and smiles... i didn't know how to do it again.. uncontrollable tears rolling down my cheeks everyday, almost every moment... not knowing who to confide to... but the bear sitting on my bed... every beginning of my day was torturous.. those were the days that makes me grow stronger.. letting me understand that i've got to be independent... however all these while, now then i realise that i didn't.. i did not stand up on my own... cause i know that i was looking around for a hand.. i did find... however fail a few times... hence i was set back to where i fell... or even deeper...
Until i realise of him next to me all these while.. and how blind i was not to see it. Not only has he pull me up... but also putting my crushed world back into one piece.. i am bliss to have him... it feels like i'm the luckiest girl on earth.

Saw Yanli's and Joanne's blog... its seems like we all missing the people we used to spent time with.
Yanli... well.. i totally understands how she feels.. of no longer know how to smile and laugh.. cause there were moments that my whole world crushed... and now.. i have dear to build and put my world together again.. and now... school is taking him away from me.. i miss him dearly...
And now i realise how much i can't live without him even for a second.. i don't wanna him to leave my sight.

So Yanli.. you must hang on, no matter what happens... its always a lesson to be learn... i'd learnt it.. if not i wouldn't be 20 yrs old now... meeting u guys in my life. therefore, god compensate me with these group of people tt he has arranged. Hang on.. you will always have us... we will stand by you..

Its only 2 mins that we saw each other today.. i miss you terribly. i can't wait for tml... to sit next to you during lesson... to be in your arms... Actually, i've realised that i've been taking you for gruanted more these days... raising my voice at you...
I'M SORRY DEAR... YOU KNOW I DON'T MEAN IT... CAUSE I REALLY DO LOVE YOU...

I Do (Cherish You)

All I am, all I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me 'cause I

I do cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much

I do
In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Til that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradiseIn a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Til my dying day

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