Recieve quite a lot of work these 2 weeks. Some installation stuff that i've got to do.
Had CCA showcase on monday till today... respond was good.. but for camp... seems like not many people are coming.. Anyways... the camp is this weekend. I'm just wondering how am i going to finish doing my work.
Going to be GL with dear... don't know how it will be like.. cause we both can't talk for nuts.. but he doesn't want me to group with other people.
Had training yesterday and today. Yesterday was a killer. Sprint 2 sets of 800m, 400m, and 200m. after that we did some gym. In the end of the training... we always have to do pumpings... and i really really almost dieded... cause my mental no loner present. My mind was not helping me through 320 pumps.. Cause i cried while doing it.
Had training again today.. water training.. i always love this like nuts.. but today mostly are on boat skills.. so nothing really much.. and its not tt fun either... but still... got to master it. after training.. ray pumped us 100 times... cause we weren't serious during training.. i think i'm part of me... its so hard for me to get down and notsmile and laugh during training.. cause i do not do so.. there must be something wrong with me... i mean it.

i was quiet.. but wasn't wad all said... cause its not true.. i know myself well that moment.. i know what i was thinking. but i din let it out.. i know i don't look good when i'm not smiling. cause i know i will look like as if i really wan to kill someone.
probably it was PMS... probably it was all about past. Its still in me.. cause it not only happened once.. and what was said can't be taken back... i feel like those words had engraved in my heart... causing it to bleed. well... now that it has heal.. however.. scars do remain. and now its still in me, unremoveable..

Probably wad he said was right.. maybe this world lives lots of bastards.. people who are fucked up...