I skip training today. Having to abandon Joanne and Yanli.. which i din really want..

Training time was 7am at mac.
so having to wake up ard 5.30am to get myself prepare..
Alarm rang... I force myself to sit up and reach for my phone...
The moment i tried to open my eyes.. i could feel that i am both physically and mentally tired. as due to yesterday training...[i'm sure joanne and yanli feels same way too]

Although training was going to end at ard 10 to 11am,
but i know by the time when i reach home i'll be too tired to continue my project.[which seems to be behind time]
i've been sleeping after my training... cause i am really tired from school and training...
i know joanne and yanli are tired too... cause they have got project, school work and training to deal with... just like me..
However.. i wonder who will exactly understand what it is like to be under project base course?[execpt for xh and ym, cause both of my captain are from DID]. Everytime when you guys are sleeping in lecture... doing homework during turtorial... having time to rest from your work, but i can't. All my course is about is self-discipline, setting my otot to finish up my work within the deadline.. therefore every minutes every second... i need to be thinking about how to get my design a better one... how to fix things together.. making my model look good.
other than thinking about this... i always think about how to play my position in a game..
my brain seems to be multi-tasking..
it is not that i dun wanna train... but its because i know i can't let myself slack from my school work.. cause i realise how lucky i am to be in yr 2 right now... i could have fail... and set into depression right now.. cause a failure once in a life is more than enough...[although i feel lucky to get retained that time]

I am still trying... to cope with my work..be a good and professional deisgner.. good sprinter and polo player..

I want to be..

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