Finally.. its over...


SATURDAY
it was like a killer...
paddle 1km..
and come in 4th in the heat..
din get into semi final..
So the whole day i spent there was to only paddle 1km..
I din feel good... cause i know i was damn damn damn damn lousy...
and i had the sudden feeling of not wanting to do sprinting anymore..
cause i find it pointless.. cause..
the nat rowers are in it...
Its almost impossible to beat them.. [just imagine them... how muscular they are.. SERIOUSLY MAN SIZE!]
and why am i paddling for..
its because i wanna win something... a medal for myself...
however.. facing the fact.. and yet i am paddling it...
seeing joaane and yanli getting into semi final and final.. and got 3rd of 'A' final..
definately i dun really feel good..
i mean i am happy for them..
but of course i will definately wan to win something.. cause... tts wad im training for.. TO WIN.
So i've somehow decided to give up.. not going to get nervous at the starting line
as it is pointless.. cause i know i won't win..


SUNDAY
Still somehow feeling down when i reach mac in the morning...
cause i expected that i will be paddling only one race for the whole day.
10am was my 500m race...
I went down...
Doing some warm up..
and went to the starting line..
My heart pump at normal rate...
"paddles up, start within 10 secs, "tor"!!"
i paddle like as if i was at training..
pulling up six hard strokes...
follow by 20 frequency and 30 long hard frequncy pull...
i lead the burst..
Following... NTU catch up with me during the maintainence...
i keep wondering.. wad is wrong with people..
why isnt there anyone to over take me...
after i reach my finishing line..
i den realise that i got in second.. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D
SECOND?????
i was so surprise...
i got into the semi final...
yup.. den i finally know something do help..
that is... not being nervous..
i check out my timing and compare it with all other heats.. and realise..
'hey, afterall.. i'm not tt bad' :D
i came in 2min 29sec..
when tt "man" could come in at 2mins 18secs..
i swear she is freaking fast...
after that when it was semi final..
i was damn lucky..
cause they almost start without me... cause while i was still paddling to the starting line..
the rest of the competitors were already at their line..
i was damn tired after going into my start line..
so my semi final i came in 3rd.. with the time of 2mins 35secs..
losing to NYP.... [which is not suppose to be]
whatever... but I MADE IT INTO THE FINAL!!!!!
Its so unbelievable...
Cause i've never been into final in my whole entire sprint competition before.. not even the semi final...
and coming in 4th for the race... lagging 4secs behind NJC with the 2rd placing..
but whatever it is.. i still did better than my heats.. with the timing of 2mins 28secs...
Although i din get myself any medal...
but i know i will continue to improve and beat the record of myself as well as my opponents..
I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF...
however this day.. Joanne and yanli came in 4th too.. :(
cause i was still hoping that they will beat ACJC pls..
But never.. cause no matter what...


GOOD JOB GIRLS!!! KEEP THE EFFORT UP... cause we will do better in out national championship which is coming in a month time. JIA YOU!




Dear dear... i know i shouldn't have tell you all those things that i had feel emo and negative about... however, thank you dear dear... it is okay to say anything to let me feel more upset.. or not letting me feel better.. cause all i need is your shoulder.. to let me lean on.. a pair of listening ear, to hear of what i feel...

You are like everything to me... cause there's nothing tt i can't tell you..
Another thank you for encouraging me not to give up..
without your advise and reminder... i think i could have paddle sitting up right again.. and probably giving up paddling half way through my race... thank you many many...

You never know how much i appreciate you.. and everything tt you have done..
You are and you will be the greatest and most wonderful person that i've come across in my entire life

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