I have never thought that she is suffering...
just like what i have been through...
I know how it feels....
how torturing it is..
seeing the process of your life turning black and white...
and slowly into black...
Blank and dark..
The scary feeling that makes you have the urge of getting out of it..
Which is when u are seeking for people's love and concern..
But most of the time...
you see it as hopeless..

At some point of time, firefly flew pass...
but it was so fast that you couldn't catch it..
Even if you manage to,
the moment when you want to open up your hand
to let it helps to shine your path..
it will escape..

At times when you are alone(or maybe you will be alone most of time)
you will be questioning yourself...
what am i doing??
why am i here going through all these??
spending most of my time in misery..
why am i not even able to smile..
just a little... right from the bottom of my heart..
because at that very moment...
your laughters and smiles are never seems to be true.

Darling...
Everything will be over soon...
let the passerby pass..
you will know who is true when time comes..
we are both been pampered once too much..
that we now can't live without it..
even if we do..
its hard...
But... never forget that i'm always here for you..
praying for you that your enrichment course will be over soon.
or when you find the new way of living your life...
you will be a stronger person than i'd first met..
Even if one day... you find that no one truely loves you...
but remember...
ILOVEYOU..
Nothing will break us up..
even if we don't talk or meet up very often..
but our bond will always stay strong...

ILOVEYOU DARLING..
if no one come to pick you up..
then i will..
you can count on me..


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I am sorry..
i know i shouldn't have said all these to you..
listening to other instead of you..
I'm really sorry..
i only know that i want you to recover as soon as possible..
cause seeing you sitting sadly alone at the grand stand..
does make my heartache..

get well soon ok..
your team needs you...
after you recover..
play ball sheilding with me okay??
then you make me practise my handroll and bracing as many time as you want..
by handtackling me..
:D:D:D:D

I LOVE YOU MANY MANY MANY MANY...
and the "many many many" goes on for 45yrs or more... :D