I think I've felt this before..
at least it is not as bad as what it was..
it was incorrigible..
its horrible..

I think its fate..
fate tells me that..
its not meant to be..
who are going to support you through it all..
are already here..
look no more further..
they are just next to you..

i think i've taken her for gruanted..
i do realise..
but i have got no idea why am i setting my vision away from her..
i think im just being greedy..
i think i desereve it
setting myself into this shit that i'm feeling right now.

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words that were let out..
seems not only to engrave in my brain..

i think i heard it...
i hope i'd heard it wrongly..
till then..
it remains as what i thought i have heard.

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ever since STC life has ended...
i've never look forward to my everyday..
how i wish time would pause at this very moment..
cause i don't feel like facing this world..
i wish i can live in my own world..
even if it just me will do..

i still remember just before she come into my life..
i spent almost all my recess alone..
squating in that big green field..
and pick those tiny purple flowers all by myself..
although they are small..
but at least they make me feel happier..
i prefer such life..

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I had hippo last year of this time to hug..
and cry on it everynight..
but now, i have 2 shoulders and 1 fatty body to cry on..
Thank you..

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