It wasn't like this..
Never in my life..
but now..
it is..

maybe it did
but it was never as clear as what it is now.

I'm kind of accepting it..
because I think I'm left with no choice..
I swear,
if I could,
I will..
how much I want to be..
maybe, till now..
I just can't lift it up..

For the real one..
its only around him..