My last entry feels like a billion years ago. Just within 3 months, so many events and things had taken place.

He has left on 5th May 2011. Exactly one month after his 55th years of birth. I was there by his death bed. Helplessly watched him gasping for his last breath. I felt and am still feeling the pinched within my heart.

I thought, this is it, our fate has ended. What I had feared for the past two years has happened. He has gone for the better, but leaving us fatherless. It was a regret that I only get to know him better when he was ill.

I got to see him last week. He looked dashing again. I gave him a hug and told him that I missed him. It was amazing of how I could remember that he is no longer alive when I was in my dream.

I woke up gradually, feeling him vanishing in my arms. I missed him more.